October 28th, 2008

Red Rose

Umm... I'll Have Cake, Please

Went and turned in my creative writing app.  Into the right box.  Which I only knew was the right box because another girl before me jammed hers in it.  It occurs to me that last semester I put my app in the teacher's mailbox rather than... I don't know... acceptance-y box?, but I dunno, that shouldn't have made a difference.  Particularly since they just say "turn it in to the teacher's box," and it's not like a teacher would take the contents of one and not another, right?


Anyway, there were a crapload of applications in there, which got me kind of concerned.  Coincidentally, while I was waiting for my seminar to start, two of the girls were discussing how they can do characters and settings fine but can never come up with plots for them, as the subject had come up in relation to one of said girls' having applied to both the Short Story classes.  (Admittedly smarter than picking just one like I did, but the other one said it would require going to events and stuff.  YEAH, RIGHT! XD)  Worming my way into the conversation, I discovered that she'd pounded away on hers until three last night turn it in today.

If everyone did that, and the apps are all a bunch of last-minute bits and pieces next to my slaved-over, find-tuned baby, maybe I'll survive.  At the least, I imagine that the toys-coming-to-life story will stand out a bit among the, you know, regular people's stuff.

Then again, whether it was a box issue or not, the previous rejection is still an adamantly-lingering force about my head here.  I keep looking at my writing and going, "My artistic voice is predominantly and sometimes overwhelmingly wry.  That might go over well in a novel, and I might like it, but what if they're being Esoteric Uber-Creative Writing Losers People, and what they're looking for is heavier than that?"

November sixth, you will be seeing a triumphant post or one even bitterer than last year's.  For the moment, I'll try to stop beleaguering you all with my uselessness. XD